I realised how inconsistance my blog posts are.... If our aim was to document our process of learning and the journey of the semester, this blog is the equivalent of a jigsaw puzzle that's pretty much missing half of its pieces, incomplete and jagged....
I feel like in my mind there is always so much to say and so much to show, yet when it comes to actually writing them down into blog posts..... hmmm....
I think it's the mismatched pace between the way I think and the way I write that make me feel so inadequate whenever I write... that goes along with writing essays and making speeches..... I'm always stuttering :/ To improve my blog post, it's not just a matter of actually writing a post every day, but more looking into the root of the problem. It's not that I don't like writing, it's just that I hate and often feel constipated whenever I write! Hence, I often just avoid it and persuade myself to use as little words as possible and tried use images instead to express my thoughts in it's arbitrary and metaphorical form.... Recently, I feel like that's not much of a solution but a cop out and I really want to change that! To be more fluent in the way I think and the way I express myself.
As the wind blows and brushes its way through us, came the enlightenment and the bloom that spring had been waiting for...
Our thoughts as streams of water, gushing down the edge of the mind, smooth and calm, flowing in an unwavering pace.
It's not enough to stretch our hands forward trying to content it... We got to feel it not grabbing it. Direct its flow into the writing, keep its flow at pace... arghhhh I lost it....
Sorry... I tried to fix/ restructure the last sentences and I lost it.... (funny how the first two just came so easily and randomly, I didn't even intend on writing them at all, I just needed a start to get to my point. Yet, when I just about to get into the point I've already lost it....) It's not the writing, it's because I stopped the flow and got carried away by the text and its content. While I was writing I was also thinking about the way I read and why I hate to read! It's to do with pace again, it just seemed extremely slow when I read. The way to explain the slowness is like trying to load a internet page using RMIT internet and safari.... it just lags and I hate when I am forced to blink at the screen, staring at a blank page, slowly loading its images and text. (Bare in mind the difference between "timeless" and "slowness".... Mad men is timeless, listening to a 3am empty street is timeless, but a traffic jam is just fucking torturing and slow.) That's why I like watching film and movie a lot more, because I feel at pace, it has its speed and pace , so I can easily surf through its wave, sail by the direction of its wind. (In motion picture, the pace is a given, we don't have to conduct or create it... We just have to follow the flow, 25 frames per second, like a train ride, u get on for an hour and half and you get off, arriving at whatever destination it brings you and you can go on to explore the land onwards) I should treat reading and writing as paintings and musics, it allows room for imagination and abstraction. If I can grasp the way to read, I think it will help my writing a lot! Read more is what everyone kept saying, and it sure is the way to learn! I look forward to the day I can grow to actually enjoy a read and get hooked on just like my endless nights of watching films after films until dawn!
Sorry I didn't finish the writing, not today but perhaps tomorrow.... lol yeh right!
This reminded me of a painting that I did back in yr 11... Fortune flows 
Thought I was ganna start my Asian Cinema essay tonight... ended up writing this random post for 4 hours.... 3am already (Being enjoying my Tripple Monday the whole afternoon! Homland, Dexter and Walking Dead!!!) ... Now it's Dial M for Murder time!! 
