Woe is me?
Today I am sick.
I will not be in the IM lecture or in the classes. This is a shame, really, but I'm determined to do some work here, at home, in close proximity to my own private bathroom...
I know what you're probably thinking. Gross, Cassie! Who needs to hear about your nausea?
Don't worry guys, I'm definitely not pregnant. But I will post up my video and a personal reading of From Work To Text to make up for my not being in class.
It's about time I read it properly instead of skimming over it and remaining confused. I've already started and it IS making sense! Shock horror - we'll see how we go.
Story ideas, and the like.
I've just walked out of my week 2 Film-TV1 tute with similar feelings to which I had last week, but heightened. I know this doesn't explain much, because I haven't yet written about the way I felt last week, but let me attempt to justify this. It was an extraordinarily hectic first week of the semester, with not only me starting to volunteer in many new ways but also getting my electricity cut off (the joys of living out of home!), so I promise to be better organised from this point forward. Since I've got some time to burn between now and when I have to be at the Channel 31 studios (for my very first live TV crewing experience!) I thought I'd just get some of my thoughts and ideas down, as a sort of reflection, or something I can look back on later.
As a homework task for this week, we had to write a 'story idea' for a short film and add it to the bank of other story ideas on the Film-TV1 blog. It took me a while to come up with a decent idea, but I managed to come up with the following on Saturday night:
Sarah, a 17 year old VCE student, learns she is pregnant in the girl’s toilets at school, after skipping class to do a pregnancy test that she is too scared to do at home. Confused and emotional, she notices weeping coming from the cubicle next to her, and tries to provide a few words of comfort. Her internal turmoil peaks when she realises her companion is her favourite teacher, who has just miscarried the baby she’s been desperately longing for. Tension builds as Sarah struggles to find the courage to confide back in her, and wonders if she’ll have the strength to tell anyone else or to take a step in any direction.
I liked this, but upon getting some sort of parody of 'a good night's sleep' and then awakening, I felt that perhaps the idea was too bleak, too depressing, even though I felt it could be executed in a beautiful and powerful way. I then came up with a sort of light-hearted short film comedy idea, as follows:
An average sort of young working man and an alluring blonde bombshell cross paths at a train station, and exchange eye contact and smiles before heading off in their separate directions. A message in the MX leads the man to believe the blonde is asking him for a meet up in a coffee shop, but when he goes there are many other guys that could be described in the same way all thinking the message applies to them, and the woman of his dreams is nowhere to be seen. The final twist comes as he is about to leave, where an evidently camp blonde man enters and heads straight for the guy he has actually written to, causing all the other men to head out as fast as possible in embarrassment.
I thought either idea had potential. I could see how either would work in a 5 minute timeframe, but I liked the first idea more. I just was unsure whether we were working in groups this week or the next, and I didn't want my group to just have to think about or brainstorm something so intense if they hated it.
When I came to the tute, Michael read my story ideas (as well as those of the rest of the class). When he finished the first one, he was a bit taken aback and mentioned how heavy it was, but laughed when he got to the second one and said he liked that a lot better.
When it came to discussing everyone's ideas with the class, however, Paul seemed to like my first one (and I talked a little bit about it, possibly sounding like a pretentious git which is always what I'm so afraid of, but more about that later). When he read the second one though, he asked if I was proud of it, and it was hard to read whether he was being genuine or sarcastic. So, at the same time, I felt really good about my first idea, and a bit confused and lost too, as if the second one somehow undermined the validity of the first. As he said later on, anyway, none of the ideas we had come up with were in any way 'new', as they were all stories that had been recycled a hundred million times. I was just hit with this sense of displacement - and I think that's the perfect word for it - which actually felt good.
So (back to the beginning sentence of this blog), this is how Film-TV 1 makes me feel at the moment. One one hand, a complete and utter idiot, who is wrong about so many things and extremely vocal about it, who is inexperienced, lost, arms flailing, talking gibberish - and on the other hand, someone who has something worthy to contribute, who is ready to learn, who can have ideas that can be collaborated on and who can help others and a useful member of the class. And this feeling is not a bad one. It's sort of like floating, falling, having the world move from underneath me for the better, not for the worse.
I know this course will turn me into a better filmmaker, a better media practitioner, will sharpen my ideas and push me, and that's why I like Paul's criticism. He could say, "This is shit," and you would learn from it, because he'd be being truthful as opposed to vindictive.
According to him, this course isn't to teach us how to make great movies, but to equip us with skills. It's kind of reassuring, knowing that you're expected to 'fail' and get things wrong and stuff up and maybe not hit the mark but learn shitloads while doing so.
I'm excited for it.
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Problems with my blog.
I think there is quite an obvious problem with my blog, and that is the lack of effort that has been put into it.
Sound slack? Well, it's honest.
I did start this semester with an excitement, an enthusiasm, to try and do my best and keep up with the workload.
Frankly, my blogs have been quite disappointing. I haven't been blogging enough, and when I have, the blog posts have been too short and haven't gone into enough detail.
I think this may be because in the beginning, I wasn't quite sure about what to post. And this semester has been quite difficult in terms of my home life - a lot of things have happened and I think I've been struggling a lot. However, I can't just keep giving excuses, because excuses aren't going to get me a degree or a job in the future.
The problem is highlighted by many of my blog posts. In this one, I have started talking about my previous skills in HTML, but then have just stopped. The same thing is seen here, where I don't even finish what I start talking about.
I would describe a "good" blog post as this one, as I talk in detail about the topic, include many external links, and even include an image. I need to have more posts like this, and even possibly fix up the ones I have, or I will fail this assignment.
the HTML test.
This is a movie taken with Photo Booth on my Mac while I was waiting for Jess and Damien to finish off their HTML test.
riding the wave (of networked media)
looking for a way to expel monday-itis? try immersing yourself in a wave of information that is web 2.0.
for those of you (like me) who only thought 2.0 represented the new version of myspace, web 2.o is the term used for the 'new generation' of the internet, when web usage became more interactive - no longer were web users passive consumers of information, but active content producers.
think about it. back about 7 years ago (when the internet just seemed to be dawning), websites were often dodgy, boring looking pages filled with text (sometimes images, if you were lucky) and were used by people in the same way one might interact with a book - simply read. sure, the information was a lot easier to access, and you could shoot an email off to the creator of the site (sometimes), but the majority of people were not content producers themselves.
things have sure changed, and now it is everyday people (rather than professionals) who create the majority of web content. with the massive popularity of facebook and twitter, it is often not journalists who are the first with the news, but everyday people who happen to 'stumble upon' events.
the fact that just anyone can start up a blog (such as this one right here!) shows that there is a lot of information being put out there, about every subject, by people who aren't necessary held accountable to tell the truth. this information overload means it's not always easy to separate fact from fiction, exclusive gossip from hoax. in this way, i feel that newspapers and traditional broadcast mediums still have an important place, in being a place where people can rely on for truthful information (to an extent).
however, the rise of web 2.0 has lead to stardom for many individuals, such as Charlie McDonnell, a British teen who has been posting videos on youtube for about two years. Here's a BBC breakfast interview with Charlie, an amazing example of how being funny, talented and creative can lead to big rewards in this day and age with a little initiative and motivation.


